Serious Emotions

That is what was felt last week. I just wanted to remember this.

The nursing students who are a semester ahead of us, meet in the same lecture hall, just before our class. Well, last week was their 3rd test. When I got there, I could tell something wasn't right. There were people in little huddles, people leaning against the walls, crying. There was a big crowd still inside the room encircling the instructors. I looked around and saw a little huddled group I knew. There were two from the upper class and two from my class talking. I joined them. I asked what was going on with everybody. The girls from the upper class told me about the test and that alot of them had failed. To some students it meant that they would be failing the class and therefore having to repeat that class next semester and therefore not graduating when they are supposed to. They were devastated. It was so sad. I felt so bad for them. I was also thinking what if that happens to me, to one of my new friends in the program? The air was so thick.

I know nursing programs have to be hard. Otherwise we'd end up killing patients. But it is such a roller coaster of emotions. I hope I make it through without failing a class. I would hate to be left behind by my class. I feel like I belong with them and them with me. Some of us already feel like we are an extended family to each other. I realize some of my classmates will fail the course we are in right now. I just wonder how many will fail and who will fail??? I don't want any of them to be left behind. But that is the nature of the beast/program. Friday we start our next class, Nursing 104. It will be sad to see the empty seats. Hopefully there won't be too many that are gone.