Saturday Afternoon

It's a beautiful Saturday afternoon. My husband is with my daughter at her Girl Scout cookie booth. My son is playing his DS. I am studying. I have a test Thursday covering gastrointestinal, hematological, cardiovascular and cancer. That is alot of ground to cover! Yesterday and today I am studying the cardiovascular. It's so complicated! But I am getting an understanding of it. This morning we went to my daughter's last basketball game, her team party and then to my son's basketball game. That's why I asked my husband to fill in for me at the cookie booth! (I need to study!!!!!) My daughter got a ball in the basket today during her game and then later managed to get the ball away from the other team. This season is her first time playing and she is finally getting good at it. She wants to play again so I am signing her up to play again in April. Her face just absolutely lite up today when she got that goal. She was beaming. I have my window open and can here to squirrels running around like crazy out there. It feels like spring and it soon will be spring. Hhhmmm, next spring I'll be an RN.

Long Time

I passed that class I took during the first part of Fall 2009. It was a tough one, the second big Med/Surg course. But, I passed it. Yay! I loved my clinical instructor. She was so helpful yet layed back. After that I started the second course of the fall semester. I was two weeks into it when I was diagnosed with a blood clot behind my knee. I had to be on bedrest for three weeks so of course I had to withdraw from the class. That sucks big time because it means I won't finish school until August instead of May. Damn those birth control pills! So, I am on Coumadin, a blood thinner and have to wear a compression stocking on my leg ALL the time. And I have to keep it elevated as much as possible. In December I had another ultrasound and the clot had shrunk a little and had started letting some blood flow through. I have another ultrasound in March. Hopefully it has gone away altogether. I never knew how long the darn things take to go away! Having a blood clot feels like having a time bomb in your body. You never know when it may break off and go to your lungs or brain. Very scary. It has really been a life altering experience.

In December I got the clearance from my doctor to return to school in January. I am almost finished with the class I had withdrawn from. It has been an awesome class, high risk ob and peds. I especially love the pediatric patients. I think that is where I want to end up working. Next week is the last week of class/clinical, then the following Tuesday is our final exam. It has really flown by. I will miss my little patients.

Feeling Better & Getting Things Done

I am feeling much better now. I was having serious PMS last week. I may have to go back on some sort of happy pill. This time my doc and I agree to try Wellbutrin. But I don't know if I want to go back on anything again. I am hoping I'll lose some weight now that I am off of it.

So, today I am working in my daughter's room. She has alot of clothes and things that she has outgrown. So, out with the old to get ready for the new. Her birthday is coming up and she will be getting lots of new stuff then.

My mother-in-law is picking up the kids today so I get some extra time. I normally would need to leave here to pick them up at 1:45 p.m. She said she'll bring them home around 5:00 so that means I'll get an extra 3 hours to get stuff done. Yeah.

I have today plus 3 more days until I start back to school. The instructors uploaded our calendar today for my first class. So, I loaded all that information into my PDA.

Better get back to work. I want to have her room done by the time she gets home. She will be so happy!!

School Night

I feel good about tonight so far. I got my son bathed and to bed by 8:30. My daughter got to bed by 9:30. I hope she gets to sleep soon and doesn't get up. I keep thinking she will pop up any minute. I have my alarm set for getting them up and ready in the morning. We went to the school today for meet the teachers. That went really well. They both seem to be excited about going back to school. My son is going into 1st grade and my daughter is going into 5th.

I start back to school next Monday. I pray we have a good school year and we are all three successful in our academic endeavors.

I'm going to bed now too.

PCOS, etc

I think I mentioned that I have PCOS and my dr. put me on birth control pills to help regulate my period. Well, I am finally having a period. I was so crabby feeling last week. I am feeling better now, more like myself. I have been off the anxiety meds for months now. I am wondering if I should go back on something. My doc says if I decide to go back on them she wants me to try Wellbutrin. My sister takes it and she does fine on it. Supposedly it doesn't make you gain weight. Speaking of weight, I need to lose some...well, alot actually. I am tired of being this big. I weigh 204 lbs. I should weigh around 140. So, I need to lose 64 lbs. Wow, that is alot. I just eat all the time. I eat when I'm bored, tired, sad, etc. I don't exercise. How do I get myself motivated to get into a regular exercise routine and stop eating for all the wrong reasons???

This, that and the other

Summer is winding down and I am secretly very pleased about that. I am ready to get back into a routine. As in the last post, I am still about to pull my hair out over being with the kids nonstop-all-the-time. They start back to school this coming Tuesday. I start back to school the following Monday. I have been studying the neuro stuff for my upcoming class.

So, I went to all my doctors this summer and have been checked out from head to toe. Everything checked out pretty good. My cholesterol is a little high so I am on Crestor now. Also, I have PCOS so my doc put me on Yaz which is a birth control pill. I am glad to be on it. I haven't had regular periods for about 14 years and we haven't used any type of birth control. So, in the back of my mind I was constantly wondering if I could be pregnant. I know, that is so stupid. But I had to have fertility help with both pregnancies so I figure the odds are on my side that I won't get pregnant. But, now that I am on the pill I don't have to worry about it anymore! Yeah. Also, maybe it will help level out my hormones and get my mood swings under control.

My daughter's 10th birthday is coming up soon. She wants to have a slumber party. Oh boy. We have had one girl at a time spend the night but not 10 at once. I have a feeling we won't get much sleep that night! I am trying to figure out what they can do to keep them entertained. I have been reading alot on the site birthdaypartyideas.com. But so far haven't found a whole lot they would like. I'm still looking though. I know they will have fun no matter what.

Here is a dilemma I am having: My daughter has a girl she is friends with who is a sweet girl. But she lives in a horrible, horrible situation. Their house is filthy and overall run down. I am not exaggerating. I have been in the house because dd went to her birthday party over the summer. It was really bad. I didn't feel comfortable leaving dd there for the party but I also didn't know how to get her out of there either. They were drinking beer at 11 a.m. and we don't drink much at all. We definitely don't drink at our kid's b-day parties. But, I let her stay and she had a great time. I worried the whole time and picked her up early. This little girl is a sweetheart. She adores my dd and has called her over the summer. She had been out of state most of the summer but when she got back she called. I asked her if she'd like to come over and swim with dd. It made her so happy and her mom brought her over. They had a great time. Her dad picked her up about four hours later. He makes me so uncomfortable. He reeks of cigarettes and is covered in tattoes. Honestly, I normally don't judge people on their appearance, but his whole package (his looks and his home, etc) are just too much for me. I just know that this girl is going to be asking dd to come over and I am going to say no. She can come here any time but I can not allow dd to go there. This school year, the girl and dd are not in the same class so maybe the girl will become attached to some other child. I just know that in my situation as a child I picked the wrong friends and that affected me in many bad ways. I don't want that for my dd. So, I am trying to guide her towards girls that are the types that will be getting good grades, going to college, not doing drugs, not having sex, etc. DD has joined the girl scouts and that group of girls is the type I want her to hang out with. She likes them and they have fun together. I'm not going to tell her she can't be friends with the other girl, but I can't let her go to her house again. I definitely wouldn't let her spend the night over there.

Summertime

We have been staying pretty busy this summer. We went to visit my sister and then to my Dads. We had my hubby's birthday, my son's birthday and my birthday.

Things right now are pretty quiet. So I have time to blog, I think. We'll see. I am home with the kids, like I am everyday this summer. Yes, it is driving me crazy that I couldn't get a job and work this summer. I am going stir crazy. Being home with two children (6 & 10 yrs old) can really grate on a person's nerves. The bickering is always popping up. The yelling: "MOM!!!! He did this or she did that..." It is like nails on a chalkboard to me. I mean, don't get me wrong...I love my kids. They are actually pretty terrific. But, being with them 24/7...all the time... everyday... every night is what is getting to me. I am ready for (their) school to start! I do not get any time to be alone or with a friend. Anytime my hubby and I try to have a conversation they are right in the middle of it. I feel like anyone who reads this will think I am the worst Mom around. But I'm not. It just gets to me. The whole being tied down all the time. I am 40-something. My friends who are my age have kids who are in high school or older. Their kids are old enough to not have to be babysat all the time. Enough about that.

My school starts back in about 4 weeks. I am in a 2-year nursing program. I have a year left, if I don't fail anything. I start back with a big med-surg course. It covers a whole lot of information in 7 weeks. That is not alot of time. I have already started studying, but should study everyday. So far I've only studied musculoskeletal. I still have neurovascular, GI/GU and lots more. I just want to get done so I can start working again. I haven't held down a real, full time job in about 15 years. My husband works but he doesn't make a whole lot. So, we have money stress. It will be so good to get back to work and have my own money. I know money doesn't make you happy but it sure does help.

Wow, I am really complaining in this post. Sorry about that. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself and having a pity party. It feels good to get it out.